i’m insane… or slightly neurotic

i’m insane… or slightly neurotic

Nov 15

ok so a few hours after my post about daniel, I’m over helping him with his car – we didn’t solve the problem this time.

Everything’s cool for him, but apparently I’m the crazy one who starts to read into stuff way too much. His brothers were there, and of course he was spending his time with the one he doesn’t see so often, I understand that, and it’s cool. But for some reason, I feel like his feelings got hurt yesterday though he’ll never admit it, and I was kind of spurring his brothers light criticism by chiming in while we were diagnosing his car – things daniel knows but for whatever reason doesn’t say, that help in the diagnosis (one of his brothers is a mechanic). Every now and then I felt like a know-it-all, though I was keeping a good distance because I’m truly no professional, but I do know enough to talk to pros.

So, I left feeling neglected and frustrated, which is neurotic of course because it’s all in my head, and looking back, there’s no reason for it.

But today, he’s not talking much, which drives this thing further. Maybe he’s just not in a good mood – completely unrelated to me. Maybe I’m not in a good mood and I’m projecting.

Well my solution is to just back off. I’ve been well known to come on too strong once I latch on, guaranteed, it’s my downfall. The problem with having grown up on the internet, living minute for minute word for word and relying on inference and implications for understanding.

eh I dunno… apparently I like to beat dead horses…

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