How i get to work when excuses to not abound…
Or: how an avid procrastinator finally gets to work.
Often severe spells of procrastination are spurred on by a feeling of being overwhelmed by a project, disorganized and generally making a mountain out of a molehill, even if it is a big project.
This isn't even addressing any tendencies to simply be lazy which ultimately must be overcome at ones own expense. My trick to this is to brainstorm on something that will motivate me to complete the job - typically the reward at the end but more often than not it isn't the reward that is more motivating but the 'hunger' in the meantime -- rent/bills are due, something important needs to be taken care of, etc. This is not even taking into account any actual deadlines.
As far as I know, the greatest motivators in the world are hunger and ego. Hunger is a metaphor for any immediate need but can be taken literally in certain circumstances and ego expresses the need to prove ones worth and place in the world. These are, however, only a motivating factors when working out of a rut or starting from the bottom. Motivation becomes increasingly difficult as NEEDS become WANTS and WANTS are more easily attained at which time incessant boredom sets in and once frivolous or extraneous ordeals become the primary focus.
wide awake.. some thoughts
With my last established paying project complete for this quarter, car repaired, rent paid, and groceries put away, my thoughts now point to doing something to cover my part of next month's rent and my cell phone bill which is due in just 5 days - for one cannot either brush off their responsibilities or rely on others without losing some credibility or taking a hit to the image one wants to maintain.
I woke up buzzing with ideas echoing louder than the fans dutifully whirring at their highest settings. It's only been 4 hours since we laid down, yet I'm wide awake and have a cranky partner pleading that I stay asleep.
i will always give an exact cause for my action but never a full reason. people, you understand, are never truly concerned with details, only ever requesting explanation to satisfy their need to feel that they deserve to know and that this need is being fulfilled.
I need to create money out of nothing as usual though in the past I have generally had a head start. The thought of creating my own leads or source of income is of course daunting.