wide awake.. some thoughts
With my last established paying project complete for this quarter, car repaired, rent paid, and groceries put away, my thoughts now point to doing something to cover my part of next month's rent and my cell phone bill which is due in just 5 days - for one cannot either brush off their responsibilities or rely on others without losing some credibility or taking a hit to the image one wants to maintain.
I woke up buzzing with ideas echoing louder than the fans dutifully whirring at their highest settings. It's only been 4 hours since we laid down, yet I'm wide awake and have a cranky partner pleading that I stay asleep.
i will always give an exact cause for my action but never a full reason. people, you understand, are never truly concerned with details, only ever requesting explanation to satisfy their need to feel that they deserve to know and that this need is being fulfilled.
I need to create money out of nothing as usual though in the past I have generally had a head start. The thought of creating my own leads or source of income is of course daunting.
some thoughts.
Human intelligence is an exponential affair, like a drop of water of morning dew, individually minute particles, collecting on the tip of a leaf - every drop will fall of its own weight and another will eventually form. In this way sustenance is achieved. The tree will grow and droplets will no longer sustain it. A balance is lost, more is now required to survive. If available the tree will thrive, given drought, one will find the tree was better off in its infancy.
Such is the basis of life. What can be considered the cruelty of nature is only a balance in the universe in this process of refinement. To get, one must give. To live, there must be sacrifice. All gain and no loss is a life unbalanced, and an object unbalanced can never attain harmony within its environment. Rapid growth cannot be justified without first considering balance and the effect in larger scales - sustainability.
more thoughts…
We live in a world of effect. A world of invisible process but overwhelming evidence of result. Causality, an invention of our own, adding reason to events observed without explanation. Our environment a catalyst for creation, manipulation, and within some of us a strange burning need for understanding.
A thought…
I wonder of our experience if we could see electromagnetic radiation as a voluminous fog. To see the microwaves emitting from your wifi router, and those of neighboring routers piercing through the walls of your home as they pass right through your body. The pulses of light emanating from your cell phone as you press send. If you could feel it.
The electrical glow of bioelectric spikes through neural pathways and out of the skin. A person's soul glowing about them.
So much radiation, natural and man made, I do believe we would be rendered blind very quickly.
Nature consists of imperceptible noise - electromagnetic vibration driving into existence everything from solid matter to a deep thought. As a matter of convenience, the human learned to harness some noise to a functional end. How does all of this radiation affect the soul as it exists from spark to spark, synapse to synapse to biochemical molecular exchange. How does it change the mechanics of man, fellow animal, plant and pathogen. You can bet on one thing, it is a very ferocious monster we create when we play with fire not knowing how to extinguish the flame or fix the consequential damage.